I wrote this big long speech thing about how much my best friend means to me. And it dwleted itself vecause i posted a link to her blog. And im too lazy to retype everyrhibg. But basically. If she died id die a bit inside
Dear most recent ex:
Im so glad that i still kept in touch with you since grade 6, because when i first moved here i was very alone. You introduced me to some good people. And if it wasnt for you i wouldnt be with the person im with now. I feel bad because looking back you really were a very good boyfriend and im glad that youre happy with who you are with now. We use to be insperatable and now we barely talk and i know im mostly to blame. I am happy to say though even though we went through a rough patch after we broke up, i can still consider you a friend.
Dear future me:
I guess it all depends on how far in thw future thiscould be… but in basics i hope youre happy. And have figured out a little more about current health problems. Things are always going to ve a little tough but bo matter what i know ill get through it. I hope that i got my life more on track and not just livibg day by day. Remember though you will always have those true few people who will always be there for you. On a side note i really hope in the future ive gotten into a college and maybe found someone to be very long term with. Ive almost always been the type to fight to ve with the person i love and i hope that i will find soneone to fight for me.
Its hard to explain everything i wish to say to you. One half of me cant help thinking….wow weve gone through a lot together and the other half has well… not so nice things to say. I wish… honestly you would have realized that yes i admit i wasnt a very good daughter but you sometimes werent a very good mother. There are things youve said and done that have stuck in my mind. To be honest i have and always will feel like the black sheep of the family. And it hurts that brandon is very obviously the favorite child. But im glad now that im away from the rules and the stress of your house, we are finally getting somewhat close again. But as for now i have to adnit there is still a lot of hurt and anger inside because of you.and rick. And iwill leave it at that for now. I will always love you.